( hell yeah cos' I have created so many email account, I don't even know which I used for blogger!) and password.
Bummer.
But thankfully, with perseverance and a whole load of free-time, I finally hacked into my own blogger account!
There's so much to update! Then again, I think I'd start afresh from here on.
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05 May 2015
The day where menstrual cramps almost hit me rock bottom. Slept over at Yishun so that I can spend more time with Bubs before both of us head for our night flights but then again, at about 2pm-ish, it was hell from then-on. I was tossing and turning during my nap before flight but the pain was overwhelming. The usual cold-sweat, back-breaking and stomach punching moment; I curled up in prawn position to ease the pain but it didn't worked.
Usually I'd just popped some pills to get over the pain but I was definitely downright stubborn until to the point where I gave up. Bubs was having his nap too, so I woke up grabbed my essentials and told bubs I'm heading to the clinic alone. Didn't want to interrupt his nap so I went off rightaway.
Little did I know, I couldn't grasp myself in that state. Excruciating pain engulfed half of my body. Struggled my way to the clinic for the very first time.
I was about to pass out at two location but took a breather and sat down at the staircase before crossing the road. I knew I wouldn't be able to make it if I'd be standing and waiting for the traffic light- Definitely will collapsed but thank Allah, I gathered inner self courage to grasp me physically.
I was feeling so terrible.
The pain, the light-headedness, nausea and close to lower-half paralysis, gasping for air and sweating profusely. I will never forget this day.
So I made it in the clinic, the counter staff was giving me a mortifying expression as though they've seen a ghost, then I figured I was the ghost.
Pale-faced, facial sweat, messy hair - I really looked like a zombie.
Grabbed the nearest seat and panting, I was called in right away. Told doc my symptoms, he started checking my blood pressure, lower abdomen. At that point I was just wanted to feel normal again. The sweating didn't stop. So this is how severe dysmenorrhoea, feels like?
" I need to give you a jab"
I was stunned but anything to take the pain away, I was literally crying then he asked me why.
"I've never felt so much pain before and I feel like fainting" -Which was true.
" Your blood pressure is low, do you feel better lying down? Turn to one side." Then the sharp needle pain.
Doctor told me to lie down for awhile and asked the counter staff to prepare me a room but I declined, I just want to go home right away but I knew I was still weak. Told him I'd be fine sitting outside to which, I did. Called bubs to fetch me at the clinic but he couldn't find the keys.
Took 10 minutes to get myself well. Took the medications and walked home slowly.
Why am I born a woman? So tough to struggle pain monthly. If now, it's already as bad, I can't imagined myself pregnant. Yes, I'm not ready for that kind of pain on another level.
I NEED TO GATHER 5 YEARS OF COURAGE AFTER GETTING MARRIED TO HAVE MY FIRST KID.
Ok bby?
