This guy, right here has been the most wonderful thing that has ever happened in my life. It's amazing how much he has done for me throughout the courtship years we've gone through right up till this date. Always have been grateful, always will. I know that no matter how much I'd show gratitude to him, it's never enough because he gives double in return. It's always about giving and receiving right?
I can never imagine my life without him, yes I've said it.
This has always been the toughest yet most sensitive issue we've ever discussed.
"One day, if I ever die first, will you promise me that you'll never marry again?" -bubs
I will forever remain mum whenever he asked me this. He will always think that I will but truth to be told, I can't even imagine him dying before me. This sensitive topic never fail to bring me to tears.
Coming from a tough childhood being brought up single-handedly by his dad when his biological mom passed away, years on, his dad got a replacement. Indeed, life was tough for him and his siblings; pretty much how he feels that he doesn't want our future children to suffer the same fate as him.
Not that I can't promise him, it's just that I can't even be in the right mind to do so every single time if he brings up this topic but then again, deep down I know I won't. Because kids, your father has always been that same person that I love from the start. Sure it doesn't feels right. The thought of parting ways from him was already too intense, what more if it really happens.
I can safely say that remarrying will never be my choice. My dear future kids, your dad wants to meet me in Jannah. InshaAllah.
And in Jannah is where forever do us apart.
I love you, Ahmad Hilmy.
Ps: 6 more months left, you're stuck to me till forever.
