Rendered an excellent service(HAHAHA okay, puji diri sendiri but really, no kidding. Extra rajin today!) on flight that it felt like everyone was watching me. It really felt as though I had this inner glow that shun from within. Confused somehow but I felt complete! One of my crew(whom I've never flown before), commented "You've got a very beautiful smile!" while we were making our way to the aircraft, I was stunned but thankful. I practically felt so much positivity in a day.
I wish for everyday to be like this but that's impossible.
So what was I happy about today? Was my make-up and hairdo for work on-point? A smooth flight with good crew? Was I finally accepting some thoughts that I've longed declined or was it that I miss bubs who's returning back to Singapore in less 24hours time?
ALL OF THE ABOVE.
I miss you terribly and I hate your Sydney flight, forever sleeping your day away! Can't wait for you to be back home. Clashing roster doesn't help at all but let's just endure, it'll be for the better, I hope.
It's been a few days that this particular thought have been playing on my mind. Remember when I said about not wanting to have a child soon? Every single time I tried shush-ing my mind off the topic, it'll continue to convince me, even when I know we're not ready financially. It hit me hard that Bub's turning 27 this year. Was telling him that the earliest if we have an unplanned kid, he'll be 28. If we follow our intended plan, he'll be at least 31 and I'm talking about having our first kid. How about the 2nd? Or maybe 3rd? He'll probably be 40. My maternal instinct finally dawned on me that I might be ready anytime throughout the next two years,maybe.
My mind is finally in acceptance about the idea of having a kid anytime right after our first honeymoon and since we're planning for 5(destinations, not kids!) within the span of 3 years, who knows maybe we'd be lucky to conceive a honeymoon baby! I thank Allah for opening my heart and mind. If we're destined to have a child, it'll all be in His Hands.
Now now, I can't wait for #hilmyshajr So gemok, I kennut!
Well, I think that's about all. Gotta drag myself into the toilet and wash away dem' make-up! Oh! My 2nd parcel finally arrived! Totally dig the whole outlook, I'm so madly in love with my veil!
Almost teared when looking myself in the mirror. Reality is smacking itself on my face, days are numbered; I'm finally getting MARRIED!
hehe.
I've never been this excited in my life(i think lulz). Gonna wrap up this post with my...........
......"Ada aku kesah?" selfie. hehe.
*mentel mode on*
xoxo.
